.

the past that makes you cry will make you grow

the loneliness that makes you cry will make you strong

do not regret your past

do not forget your past

past is just past

anyway it does not exist

it can not exist

it will remain in you

but it can not rule you

as it is only memories



since you already have a different world,

you should be the person in that world.,,

nothing else

say hi to... WOMAN POWER!

YES!!!!!!YES!!!!!YES!!!!!!!

i told myself.
no more bitchin abt my life in korea

no more I USED TO GO TO SPA TWICE A WEEK

fuck that mercedes
i dont even have a driving liscence
i cant drive it ANYWAY

I live without my parents help in paris,

YES NOW I KNOW HOW TO MAKE COFFEE AND USE LAUNDRY MACHINE!!!!!

IM GOING TO BE like that BALD WOMAN!!!!!!!!


IM GONNA TAKE CHARGE!!!!!!!!!!!

say hi to ... O HELLNAA bish Ima beesho azz, waash! OMAIIGAA!

dior 2003!


galliano... LOVE!!

say hi to morocco life

i think ive been here like... more than a week now ?? like 10 days?
i thought i was in tager, but im actually in assilah


so ...i guess i really AM the only asian person

im used to this kind of treatment, because i went to like
an english school....

and also backstage.,.,,

tokenism watever

im blonde so when i wear a hat and sunglasses no one ...

bullied me, but today i forgot them, and i was walking on the street

and everybody was like yelling at me

MOSHI MOSHI! KONICHIWA!

so i yellled HALALA HALALA HASHHHISHSSISHS HASSHSHSISH






IF ANYONE yells at me at any part of the world, at any city

chingchong, konichiwa, nihao etc...

i will yell back at you....


IF you yell at me in korean, i will yell at you back in korean

telling you "YOU!!! DARE SPEAK KOREAN AND U NEVER LEARNT KOREAN MANNERISM!

I AM AN ADULT! DONT LOOK STRAIGHT INTO MY EYE WHEN YOU ARE TALKING TO ME! RUDE!"



Also, can people please be educated to ask "which part of asia are you from"

instead of asking "so,you speak chinese very well?"

like...dont try to guess where were from. ASK.

say hi to.... hot

i saw this and i was like... wow... if i was a lesbian
i would feel like the mannish one, but ill be the one in the bra.

so...90's! JeanPaulGaultier....LOVE!!!!

and then my friend sent me this photo


i like men.

say hi to 16

i will never go back. i dont wanna go back anyway.

say hi to Nippon Vogue!

Patti wilson and francois nars are amazing! <3

say hi to... im lucky

im lucky i had you in my arms for 0.5 seconds

HAHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

but fortunately im blessed with beautiful boyfriend
who i enjoy watching everyday.

morocco... SAY HAYYYYYYY

i like ... ahrab ppl
theyre cool.... HABIBI

i grew up in super muslim area in malaysia when i was a child

it was in terenganu so its not same, but really simmilar !!!

i was like wow....coooooool

and also ahrab boys are cool like theyre so tanned and fit body

and wears tight tight shirts and tight tight jeans

have close-shaved hair and kind of this boyish attitude, looking for something

smoking on the street....

so cute. i was on the beach and i was very pleased.


im like...the only asian person in the whole city i think (im in tanger)

ppl stare like mad cos im like...blonde asian but i decided to wear yohji

and enjoy the attention.

tokenism!!!!!!
YALLAH!!!!

say hi to vacation

i really love my job, but not in an abusive way...

i have a life...

there...is life after im done with my job

i come home....


i ...have feelings?




im going on vacation...... see you in fashion week!

say hi to peter berlin

he was so dedicated to his beauty really

like he said he wanted to be loved and wanted

that is what is called looking for love

used whatever he got to get loved.

so he dressed tight

and had a hard on

stood on the street.

there is something so romantic about it



i remember when i was a child
i didnt even
think about
getting loved.

i thought life was loveless.

say hi to ...HOT

i like to be in the GUTTER
BY CHOICE

say hi to metro area

im feeling very nostalgic lately

i was listening to metro area

in like 2003 (yes i came like one year later...)



i was a scary kid

i had a super double life. i was straight A student at school.

kinda quiet. and at night when my parents were sleeping

i was a riding back of boys motobikes jumping fences dressed like gucci slut

made out with neighbour boy ...went to raves

i used to skip school and my parents had NO IDEA

i didnt even go far, didnt even leave the house actually

i wonder if my parents even know this till today.

i was too tired so i would just sleep in the bathroom/shower room thing next to the pool

say hi to i love these vintage faces

pretty girls make my day

say hi to i miss tom ford gucci

who doesnt.
i think that was like 2003, when i was like okay
im gonna be a slutty gucci girl . instead, i took a detour and became
a cosmic wonder tomboy then dressed like a 40 yr old hard core feminist lesbian archietect (means
comme des garcons+yohji) then
became a bernhard wilhelm mushroom crackhead,
went through fur phase,
lost all my clothes to my ex boyfriend
and went somewhere with prints and
returned to ... dont need so much clothes. but i kinda like wearing heels now.

say hi to lucas leclere!

so this is one of my two french gay boys
i always do italian dance music to....

he has a column in mens non no (style guide! im a girl but i love mens non no!
since i was in jr high sch!)

i loved this one. he dresses like a hot dyke.

say hi to

say hi to lola

so i kinda always had a crush on romain duris
i watched "the beat that my heart skipped" when i was like...15...or something
i like...related to that movie in a strange opposite way
i was abused by piano teachers too...

he kinda has
chav..face

but its like...hot

and same time its like groqtesque but i find this kind of MEN attractive

i dont find brad pitt or like tom cruise type attractive at all

i loved this scene from 17 fois Cécile Cassard



i find that movie...so .... disgusting reptition of emotions its very very very very very very very
well done

it is like..art

so well done

so disgusting my emotions

repetitive

gross

beautiful

disturbing

calm

violent

abandonement

neglect

so what.

say hi to

hey so my sister& her boyfriend live in shanghai right

and they said my blog is banned in CHINARRRRRR

wei shen me?

wo bu yao!

say hi to.. tired

give me food

say hi to...florists....

im definately not... one of those
wifey people who like...rants about bad florists

and i dont know names of every flower...really

but seriously

florists are like... hair dressers

they want to put... more...hairspray on you.....


why...they always want to put...more and more and more

and like..i really dont understand why..use a plastic wrapper...n ugly cheap fake ribbons

is this... a candy?


i was buying flowers for my love the other day and it got like fucked

so i had to like re-do it myself

and i was trying to be super nice to the florist cos he was just being sweet

putting in all those extra fuschia tacky roses into this tasteful lilac - blue coloured

flowers i picked and wanted to put ribbons n shit... like why.....why....whyyyyy

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

say hi to sugar water

i grew up in singapore, since i was 7 till like 16...

one summer, i went to sailing trip with school friends

and i got very traumatized by that trip

i came back and i did not return to school

i think i was 14? 15? something like that

i was lucky my neighbour was a famous cinematograpaher? artist

and i used to hang out there instead of going to school.

i used to draw at his studio and he would tell me things like

im not really depressed im just pretending so i that i could skip school.


he used to play this song by cibo matto sugar water

on loop

he teached me about marxism and punk culture etc

and wanted to play golf with my dad.


my parents were... kind of horrified

say hi to growing up

my friend told me over lunch the other day
that you get a better understanding of yourself
and all of the little confusing things of your past
comes more in a clear sense in your early 20's

its been quite true, in my late teens i was quite
confused about couple things
like
still im abit confused but slowly
i am getting a broader view of what actually
happened or things that i have, and what things actually are

and moved on, no hate, no self pity , forgive and forget

im in heaven and im in hell

alot of the times, this kind of job, damages people.

but for me,

ironically it gave me time to think about myself alot. (since all the wait and things)

i told myself, from beginning to spend time nicely, spend time wisely.

also fame, comes and goes.

i just wanted to go away.


i grew up with alot of things.

but i have nothing to go back to.

im not korean, im not english, im not singaporean, im not european. im not american.

no hometown to be stuck to.

i wonder. where is my home.

even before this job, i was always wondering.

i was such a lonely child

now my friends comfort me by telling me,

that i can make my own new home now, as i am free.



i am in heaven i am in hell.

say hi to sexy girls

DANS LE TAXI!

say hi to ...chanel haute couture

CHANEL





backstage...is...

fruit time with skye!




chanel is such a nice house to WERQ with
theyre so nice to models, last time i went for cruise show or prefall
we stayed in the nicest hotels and in our room there were gift bags from chanel
this time we got chanel makeup!!!
i was happy cos i never wear makeup, and i feel so adult now
with chanel lipstick in my clutch bag


tea time with kasia!





WE ARE LADIESSSS

no, not madame,

MADMOISELLE!

say hi to seoul

video i made for harpers bazaar last year for their 12 yr anniversary

seoul from 2005 till 2008

dry

so dry

i did not cry

i did not smile

say hi to my column in CECI <3

so! i write this column every month for CECI magazine in korea,
its called DAUL SAYS DAUL DOES
pays my reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeent

we did a paris special with lovely cameron smith and mariko ouchi!!!!!

do u like it????????????????????

from
cameron's blog
http://cameronsmithphoto.blogspot.com/

say hi to info!

say hi to coutre week!

im doing chanel couture then im djing
this party at mulberry store in rue saint honore
on the 8th!!! 6pm till 8

LOVE!!!!!!!!!

say hi to old prada ad

LOVE!

i think the first time i was like into
a model was when i was 12, shopping with my mom
in ferragamo store where there was this
huge poster of jaquetta wheeler and i was like
"wow i want to look like that"

say hi to:::

i love
trance music

like

seriously

fuck

all the other genres

hard core trance and minimal tech

say hi to do u really

wanna huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurt me

say HAY

say hi to...reaction

sometimes
when i say something
people are like....youre psycho
and im like... no im honest

thoughts about certain things
and the morality to not do certain things
the line is very clear

but
boredom and entertaintment to fullfill it is
important.

pleasure is absolute, pain is relative.

i deal with it, i dont neglect it.