I LIKE TO FORK MYSELF: October 2009

say hi to halloween

last year

i was so lost

but that night was beautiful

i was living in london, and i had a punk boy in my life

and it was such a relief to run away to

new york city

i had no time to buy costume, so i just wore my old dolce&gabanna from the 90s

ironically the one the punk boy gave to me ...

i felt so...free and kind of excited

i was with my best friend p, and it was beautiful and strange night

we ended up in the most strangest place, most awkward moments

so newyork.

i think this year i will remember today as the day i slept 10 hours without

any help of anything or anyone without any dreams and woke up feeling peaceful and happy.

no more running away from something or someone or myself.

i wonder what will happen tonight

say hi to dazed party

i was getting mad depressed and overworked in seoul and highlight of it was this day

i dj-ed
and it sucked

everyone just stared and took photos and left

cos of staring, and not dancing i was like.... uhm....okay what should i do. should i pose?

so i just drank a lot

danced

and take photos with minkoo <3 youweresleeping.com

and my agent was like.... panic ....

its like...

ppl tell me to do something, and i do it, and then they always tell me don't do anything.

and when i don't do anything they also tell me to do something.

so i left seoul and im in paris <3

im happy!!!!!!!!

as is

i stand across the light

holding plastic bags

i respond to the man i dont know who smiles at me

i dont exist

only something almost near perfection

i dont even move my head and

i dont even jay walk in front of the police car.

as it is.

like this.

.

i danced all night

i sold my soul

i sang a song

killed everyone

i realized space

i abandoned love

i bought blood

i hid my tears

say hi

what are you doing for halloween
2:44pm
Samuel
nothing special i'm already a monster.

say hi to james....

is...this...

ART?

say hi to what i want to wear this SS10

but i aint shoppin cos im buying food instead

orange marmalade

하고픈일도 없는데
nothing i want to do
되고픈것도 없는데
nothing i want to be
모두들 뭔가 말해보라해
everyone tells me to say something

별다른 욕심도없이
without any greed
남다른 포부도없이
without any extraordinary ambition
이대로이면 안되는걸까
can't it be this way

나
am
이상한걸까
i a little strange?
어딘가 조금
somewhere little
삐뚤어져버린
deformed
머리에는
mind
매일매일 다른 생각만 가득히
filled with different thoughts
나
am
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금 이대로
as of right now
어른이되버린 다음에는
after i become adult
점점 더 사람들과 달라지겠지
more and more i will be different from everyone
모든사람이 나와같다면
if everyone were like me
아무갈등도
no conflict
미움도 없이
without hatred
참좋을텐데
it would be so nice
참좋을텐데
it would be so nice

나
am
이상한걸까
i a little strange
어딘가조금
somewhere
삐둘어져버린
deformed
머리에는 매일 매일 다른 생각만 가득히
head different thoughts everyday

나
am
괜찮은걸까
i okay
지금이대로
as of right now
어른이 되버린 다음에는
i become adult
아니 난 자라지 않을것만 같아
no i don't think i will grow

say hi to. hair grows.

hair grows.

say hi to....possibilities

if i continued to stay in korea and became a wife

if i continue to stay in paris and smoke alot

what i want to be deep inside

say hi to kostas murkudis

omg young gunievere (???) and christina kruse <3

i always loved christina kruse but wow. she looks amazing here

say hi to strory i styled for tank

this was the first time i styled for a proper photoshoot

being a stylist is more complicated its more like....production

i did a tranny dragqueen story , although i enjoy this its not really representing my personal style

at all... .but i think styling is more about interpretation and i felt like nowdays stories are

too "cool" so...i wanted to do something tacky. and also its really more about the editing

and collaborating/ respecting staff.

i really love masoud and thank him for taking the risk of hiring me hahahahahahahhhaha

http://tankmagazine.com/mafuAssets/pdfs/v6i1_fasshion_whos_that_girl.pdf

the male model *yes hes a male!

was axel miraton and he was AMAZING!

say hi to .... 2007

nyc...

so many times

i almost jumped but didn't

say hi to fet et moi

say hi to where are you from?

where are you from?

where do you think im from?

i don't know some place beautiful

say hi to... so inspired

shes so cool!!! <3 makes me feel happy. its very 90's!

now im like a fur lady with dyke hair cut ... ppl tell me i look more mega bitch face now :( i want to look more friendly/approachable.

maybe i should smile more.

i was feeling like @#%@#%@# cos my skin broke out during fashion week

but im ALL GLOWING NOW BECAUSE OF SPA AND LOVE

im wearing ann sofie back to the dazed party <3

photos from facehunter!

say hi to.... sophie's world

im reading this book sophie's world by yoyustein geieger (omg cant spell ...im reading in korean)

it reminded me when i was a child

that day i thought for the first time

who am i

where is god from

where do i go after i die

and that first night i got so scared. i still remember being crawled up in my bed. and i couldn't sleep.

when i become a mother one day

i want to hold my child close to my arms and make her feel secure.

and explain to her about things like this in a reassuring way when she asks.

say hi to working day :D

Yesterday was special day <3 i did guest appearance for Olive show
it was first time i was in studio so it was really funny

from bad hair to...

better hair to....

good hair

my name in korean waiting room<3

in studio <3

while we are recording funny things happened , i would get distracted and
some staff people would run up to where im looking
with big pla-cards? (big white signs) which says
"LIFT !!!" "MORE SMILING!" "LOOK LESS DEPRESSED PLEASE!"
"GOOD JOB! FLIRT!"

.....

i was like....wow... fun :P