say hi to nothing

[i am in ny since last week]

couple days ago i was very aware

and it was middle of the night

i was thirsty

i went to the kitchen to get water

and i looked out the window

and all these fucking buildings and lights everywhere

(financial district)

reminded me of seoul


i was not confused

i was very aware

at the fact that there is only comfort and boredom

and discomfort and fascination


i am fascinated at how truth brings discomfort


i am a dirty guilty selfish person

and this brings comfort


i am a honest truthful giving loving person

this brings discomfort and pain

and eventualy boredom.

fascination and fascism.

a facade we put on