say hi ....to happiness!!!

to be honest, living in paris was fun
but also very very depressing

i was used to getting anything i want at anytime
since i was young

i used to get very upset or agressive or simply
did not understand WHY sometimes i cant get what i want

and now i realised, things dont work like that

in europe... almost more than 50% of chance
it wont work out like you want, and people will be retarded about things
and if you stress about it
only you will suffer

i knew the theory always but then its hard to accept it,

and i told myself, before im 25, i will force myself to suffer abit in abroad

to develop myself, cos i feel like when i get back home ppl treat me like a princess

and i keep getting super spoiled....n alot of weird ppl so...i become caught up

its better in korea i can focus on the emotional complexity of life

its abit entertaining to deal with psycho people ...

... it kills time.



its still a constant battle between my old friends telling me

"Uve become so tough poor you! means u suffered"

"its so un nessasory you learn these things you are gonna come back anyway"

but im sure there is a way to become strong without being tough...


ive been very happy recently. and im learning how to not be tough but strong.

i lived a fast life and i wanted to end it as quick as possible
and now days i feel like... everyday is kind of precious to me