2009/08/13

say bye

i tell myself

im strong.

i dont need to show

my painful past

no one needs to know

the horror i went through

i grew up too quick

and no one, saw past my surface

i dont know how to hurt people

i dont know how to be loved

i dont know how to love

im hurt

but im strong


and im perfect

alone.

22 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'm sorry that i am not able to help you...

August 13, 2009 at 12:57 PM  
Blogger A said...

daul daul daul
you are my idol
and you're younger than me!
i wish we could be friends
but i've never met you
i read your blog all the time
for 2 years now
because it is so honest...
i think i understand how you feel
sometimes
please love yourself.
i love you!

August 13, 2009 at 2:10 PM  
Blogger american dream said...

believe me its just so easy to say that u r perfect when u r alone.
its nothing wrong with being alone, but if u loved or were loved its changes u a lot.
and it makes ur heart aches

August 13, 2009 at 2:53 PM  
Blogger american dream said...

believe me its just so easy to say that u r perfect when u r alone.
its nothing wrong with being alone, but if u loved or were loved its changes u a lot.
and it makes ur heart aches

August 13, 2009 at 2:53 PM  
Blogger THATS MS TAYLORRR said...

i hope you can remember that when you feel like you are not strong, you are. because you give strength to others by simply existing.

you add color to my life.

-Ms Taylor

August 13, 2009 at 4:23 PM  
Blogger Juan said...

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August 13, 2009 at 4:33 PM  
Blogger Juan said...

the deleted one was mine sorry. it is quite disturbing how people around just pass you by without noticing shit while we're through rough times but as you telling myself that i'm fine alone has help me move forwards cause after all i am good i am alone and i am ok.

August 13, 2009 at 4:38 PM  
Blogger hrjkdys said...

mhm your entry reminds me at this quoting:

"humans are born alone, we think alone and die alone.
if i can't live independently...
then i'd rather be a water flea,
they are more independent than us."


anyway, i don't know you but whatever the problem is, i think you'll handle that.
i'm not one of those positive thinkers, actually i'm quite negative to everything but - "new day, new start" or better:

"go go and not cry cry"

August 13, 2009 at 5:51 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

we share brains, yes?

August 13, 2009 at 6:05 PM  
Blogger skinequalsblue said...

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it.

For I too am beautiful and alone.

August 13, 2009 at 7:37 PM  
Blogger Eden2010 said...

telling yourself youre strong in those cases just pushes it more into denial and resent. its a lot to swallow, i know exactly how you feel and trust me youll soon see the strength of everything youve been through, thats what makes you stronger.
not trying to ignore and perfect everything but instead following whats real and meaningful to you as an individual, which is afterall why you were put here : D

when you cry alone, its perfect but to share those tears with someone else and all its embarrassment, theres joy and hugs to follow and you strengthen your spirit and realize you had nothing at all to worry about hiding : )

im still figuring it out myself though, the lone life is one without fear of eyes to judge, but also without hope of arms to hug ; /

August 14, 2009 at 11:28 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

it makes us stronger, being alone

August 14, 2009 at 3:09 PM  
Blogger Eden2010 said...

and if you had to choose between being strong or being loved?

August 14, 2009 at 10:08 PM  
Blogger Sunny said...

...its a luxury to feel lonliness no? 힘내요...

August 17, 2009 at 12:47 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i hope that things get better. we all go through dark times but i am sure you see the things that aren't so bad. i wrote a little thing about you on my blog. http://unbiasedblog.blogspot.com/2009/08/daul-kim-is-not-happy.html

let me know if you'd like me to take it down. xoxo

chin up beautiful!
-j

August 18, 2009 at 4:28 PM  
Blogger Lisa Petrarca said...

I feel as though I could have written that!

I've always had a very thick wall of protection around me and would only let a few people inside to really get to know me.

Fear can be stifling...learn to let go of it and become the person you are meant to be!

August 22, 2009 at 2:37 PM  
Blogger Lisa Petrarca said...

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August 22, 2009 at 2:48 PM  
Blogger Lisa Petrarca said...

I wanted to share a poem I wrote during tough times...hope it helps!

PUSH AHEAD
By Lisa Petrarca

Your courage and strength is your crowning glory
They can never take away your personal story
You and God determine your destination
Push ahead, without hesitation

Try as they might to break your spirit
Your heart and faith will keep you in it
Believe in yourself and your path will be clear
Push ahead, your dreams are so near

Fear and doubt will creep inside
You sometimes want to just run and hide
You’re scared of failure and all it entails
Push ahead, and you will not derail

The road ahead seems long and tough
The twists and turns sometimes seem too rough
Your goals are worth the struggle ahead
Push ahead, your hopes and dreams are worth the tread

Reach high above and look toward the sky
It sometimes takes just one more try
Your steps are sure and your way is clear
Push ahead, and you’ll overcome your greatest fear

Perseverance is what it will take to shape and mold
You and God will decide what your future will hold
All your dreams inside are about to unfold
Push ahead, the story of your life has yet to be told

August 22, 2009 at 2:51 PM  
Blogger uncia said...

lisa petrarca- whaddabout people who don't believe in god?

August 28, 2009 at 2:37 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

this is how I feel right now

May 12, 2010 at 10:11 PM  
Blogger  said...

What do I do when I have identical feelings to you. I wish you were still here.

October 9, 2010 at 8:16 PM  
Blogger whYWhywHy said...

something reallly horrible must've happened to you when you were a teenager or young girl.. i dont want to guess, but maybe.. you were raped? or perhaps you were forced to do things horrible things? i dont know what to think... but im sure something really awful happened during that time. i hope you've forgotten and that you're at peace now. love you forever<3

March 14, 2015 at 9:37 PM  

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