my idol

this girl used to be my idol when i was 10

i listend to her music in my room

with aircon on

and cried all day doing nothing

feeling depressed

painting my lips black

singing along



AND THEN

she released her third album

which was a HIT

AND THEN

she became weird

and commercial

and happy clappy yucky

AND THEN

she published book which was absolute shit

AND THEN

she went into some ochestra-singer ish vocal thingi which was also even more shit

and un bearable

AND THEN

she got married to some guy who used to date a model

AND THEN

she was forgotten.






but she looked much happier than before.



i know its really mean

but i still wish

she died

before she released her third album

and stayed as "her" just the way i liked "her"



like sid vicious

like john lennon